presence

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If she tells you that she is counting on you, it means
you are a part of the whole. It means the whole won't be
a whole without you. It means you might be just the piece
she needs to feel complete. If she tells you that she
is counting on you, it means you are inextricable
from the number in her head: 18 roses, or 100 guests,
or 10 people she cannot possibly live without.

If she tells you that she is counting on you, know
that you may be the first. And know that you may be the
last. Know that you may be somewhere in the middle,
crucial to keeping a straight line between the two
ends. Know that you may be one among many, or you may be
one, period. If she tells you that she is counting
on you, know that she might not be counting that high.
Start counting: One. Stop counting.
Know that you may be the only one;
know that you may be her only one.